Confused by an Aquarius man

by Amazona
(Viena, Europe)

I met in an social network an Aquarius man. It was he who contacted me, sending me a message, telling me that he was turned on when saw one of my pics. We had a chat only writing messages... and he got hard. In that chat he talked a little about him, for e.g that he was an exhibitionist and that he liked to be watched stroking his penis on the webcam. I have to say that I liked him as I saw his photos and profile... and he was the kind of men that I felt attracted to. After that chat... he talked (written messages)from time to time during the next couple of weeks. Then he sent me a message asking me how I felt when I thought of him. After sending my message to him, he opened up more to me and wrote me a message that made mental connection with me (something very weird). I replied to him and I got one more message from him, where I got confused when he said that he was on his way to the airport and writing as a farewell: wait for me, kiss.
He answered two days latter to my message. I saw him on line, but he made then the excuse of being very tired and not to have time. I felt like I was disturbing him. I disconnected from the link. Two days later I saw him online... and he did not replied to my last message to him. That made me to feel very disappointed and to have tears on my eyes. I read then in different forums and in the internet articles about Aquarius men... It was after reading a lot of articles, that I could understand better his behaviour as he was for 2 months without contacting me. In all the articles that I read about Aqua men, said that they always come back. I decided to wait for that date to happen. It was after 63 days that I got a message from him.I was so happy that if I were had him in front of me few metres far from me... I would have run towards him to hold him. I was expecting to have a long message from him, but I got only one question asking me if I was in a place the day before in the morning. I answered him that it was not me. He said to have seen a girl that looked like exactly like me... and that she had the sexiest legs that he ever had seen and that her face was exaclty like mine. I said
that it was not me.I thought that, that message was an ice breaker to be in contact with me after so long... but he said that he really saw her. I got jealous when I said to him, to take a pic from her the next time that he saw her. He said to go for a drink with her and then take a pic of both. I felt jealous again and I think he noticed that from me. So I started to tease about the situation. He said that I was doing that because I knew that he liked her. I don´t know if with that answer he wanted to tell me that if he thought that she was me... and that if she liked him, then he was telling me in an indirect way that he liked me. We chat other day after that conversation. It was then that he asked me my details to join Messanger or Skype, as it was very difficult to talk from the link where both were. I said to him that many guys who were changing details with me in M and Skype, masturbated in the webcam and that I was fed up of that... so I did not trust to much the reason to use the cam. I said to him to give him my details with the condition of no do that to me. He gave me his word. He moved to visit his parents by the weekend and we agree to talk after he was back. According to the advices given in the articles, of not contacting him and to do all the opposite of what you heart says to you to do... I follow that instructions and when I saw him on line on Skype, I simply ignored him. Sometimes I put myself busy, sometimes online available, but during two weeks I ignored him despite he was on line. It was after those two weeks that I got one "hey" from him. I answered to that greeting, four days later. We had a chat that day. He always talk about sex, and always get hard when he talks to me online. I said to him not to do that, but he said that he has that reaction everytime he sees my photos. In that particualar day, he sent me two pics of his penis as he has one of 22 cms and he feels very proud of it. I think that for that reason he like to exchange pics with the girl who is on the other side of the PC and as well to strok his penis on the webcam and get aroused for being watched. I got a video of 1 minute with his "explode". He asked me questions about what was on my mind when I saw his penis and what he did. I said that I kept those thought for myself and that I did not want to share them. After that day, I wrote him a message telling him that he broke his promisse to me and if he was going to do that everytime that we were online. He said not to be sure. I told him that he was not the only guy doing that to me online and that, that was annoying me. He said that I could not compare his penis with the other ones; also that I could not compare him with any other man, sexually or intellectually. He is studying his second career, finishing a master and have a lot of artistic skills in painting. He does workout in the gym: he has an impressive and gorgeous body and he is very handsome. Too perfect! My reaction was different towards him since I got all that knowledge about Aqua men. Before I used to be more open up to him. Now it was opposite. I asked him to be more straight forward person with me, and so he did. He was sharing how he felt. I was not. Then he said to me that if both were on the same page, why I was not being direct with him, when he asked me what was on my mind when I thought of him. I could not answer to that question, as in the way that I would like that he would be with me... probably would make him to run away from me. He said to me to feel very comfortable talking to me, also the shared with me what he liked and disliked in sex and that we had a mental connection. I noticed that he was acting different with me. I felt him closer to me than before. Really he was opening up to me. I think he started to trust me. Our conversations continued in the same line with the exception that he said that he had not before free time and that for that reason he had not time to go for a drink with me, but that from certain date, he would be more available. It was about two weeks ago, that I got a message from him telling me the following: let´s meet and fuck like animals
I answered to him with: ?
He answered to me: a happy face :)
I was confused. He asked for sex without meeting us before or even know one to each other.
I said to him that what made him to think that I wanted to have sex with him. He said that he had a feeling that made him to feel that, that he felt that he had a very deep sexual connection.
That was true. I also feel that as the chemestry that there is between us despite we have not met in person yet, is tremendous. I cannot explain why that has happened. Only with photographs and some chats. Everytime I see his pics, I have butterflies in my stomach and all the symtoms that I have feelings for him.
I said to him that I also hold other chats with others guys... and he said that I was not answered them once that they were in that way with me... but that I still was answering to him. I said to him, that I was helping him to face his doubts and fears and that I still was answering to one of the other guys. He said to me, then he is special too. I asked him: do you think that you are special to me. He said, of course. You can say that I am right or that I am wrong, but how I know... I just know.
The fact is that he is the only special for me. I do not know how he found out about that. I guess that he can feel also that.
After telling him that I was writing as well to the other guy... (with who I only have a friendship despite he would like to have something else with me...) he said that he had to finish as he was going to get the train, but that we would continue with that chat.
After two days I saw him online...and I contacted him. He was not in the mood to talk. He said to be busy studying. I felt again to be disturbing him. I waited then 7 days and I wrote him a message, telling him that my sixth sense told me that he was not OK with me and if I did something wrong he could let me know... but if he decided not to do it... it was fine, only that I did not want to feel bad if I did something that annoyed him. He has been distant to me. I wrote him another message a couple of days ago, telling him that I cannot have sex with a person that has not know me first as a person. He still insist that he would like that I would do to him a blowjob.
Today I talked to him and we just share 4 minutes of a chat. I only see that he is the mood to talk when he is horny... then his chats are long. We can be for 1 hour or 2 chating. When he is not in the mood... as much 10 minutes.
I am very confused with all this. I have made him understand that I am not for any men entertainment... or just to have sex.
COULD any AQUA man give me please any answer to this situation?. Are we already friends, despite we have not met in person yet? Is normal that an Aqua man is in this level of physical attraction with a woman in this way or is it only lust? Could be the possiblity that he is in love with me? What does for an AQUA man to be "special". He said to me that he knew that he was special to me...
I would be grateful for the answers to my doubts... as I am very, very confused with all this. I really would like to get to know him as a man, friend and person... then I think I would be ready... now I am just so scared to be used by him... and that then, he jumps into the next "mistery" woman.
Regards,