Pisces men and depression
I am a Scorpio woman, who doesn't easily get attracted to guys. Funnily, Pisces always caught my eye. My first love which started off with a mistake was with a Pisces; I was young, naive and he was being a teenage boy as well. His birthday is on the 3rd of March. I thought we were in love. But it turned out after four years of on and off relationship, I realized I was just being used.
Basically, he's a different kind of Pisces, not sensitive, not caring, not poetic, not in touch with his soul and not loyal. I asked his sister once if he was ever hurt by any of his exes. She said nope. What he has in mind was money, using any girls he can for his own benefits. and i got to know bout it. it was a dysfunctional relationship basically.
He was my first love yet he wasn't the only Pisces. He left a deep impact in my life in good and bad ways. So i promised myself not to ever fall in love again with a Pisces. Yet, after him, i was with another Pisces, and another half Aries/Pisces guys which were rebounds to me as the previous relationship really affected me. And after almost a year we unofficially or officially broke up (i also have no idea), I went to a club this one night, and my attention were caught by this one guy, and he didn't notice it, his presence just grabbed my attention.so, we were looking at each other and flirting but he didn't approached me. luckily my friend was there ad she saw us, we were talking bout that cutie sitting at the corner, annoyed with us not doing anything to each other, she went to the guy and asked him why he didn't come to me,and i obviously tried to pull her back to me, embarrassed but somehow i get to have a quick chat with him, exchanged numbers, and he went missing for couple of months.
I ignored him yet he was still on my online social networking medium. So after that two months,i decided to delete him coz just wanted to cleanup my friends list, he didn't talk to me online as well. The first time i tried to delete, i didn't, coz my heart said no, then when the second time i was about to delete him,he came online on MSN and chatted with me and now he is my boyfriend,who is a really loving, caring, sensitive, gentleman (to all the girls) but i know he's being a Pisces.
I can say, i fell fast for him, it's only been three months since we've been in a relationship. everything seems to be fine. he's also recovering from previous relationship and so do i, I've been compromising. on my part ive let go the previous hurt but not entirely bc im sacred I'll get hurt again. and on his part, he's been a good boyfriend only that sometimes he needs his time alone like during weekends which is the only time i have to spend with him), and he's been disappearing which hurts me bc Ive tried my best to put aside my hurt but still it seems that he hasn't.
Once, two weeks after his 'disappearance' period i went online at his house,and he was asleep and his acc was signed in. so i went through the inbox and i found out that his ex messaged him wishing him to become a better person and he only replied a lyrics which says in conclusion; let him go, bc he feels like shes been tying him up. So i got the answer of his 'disappearance' period. I was a bit upset, bc I don't know if his ex gives him such a big impact, can he even try to forget her.
Ive tried to forget my bad past,and still trying though everyday I browsed my ex's facebook. but it's just frightening to know that he can be badly affected by it. I once called him few times,he dint answer,instead let his best friend talked to me and I wasn't in a good mood.I fear that he'll take me for granted and My heart itself is at fragile stake. but he's such a lovely boyfriend.
Only this depression mode of him scares me to death and i don't know what to do of it? Anyone have any advice?