Scorpio Aquarius thank you

This site is very informative and I'm grateful for having found it. I too am a Scorpio woman and have been involved (off and on) for 2 1/2 years with an Aquarius man. It is a long distance relationship which complicates things from the start but beyond that...I have to say it has been the most trying and frustrating experience I've ever dealt with. Many times I've decided that it wasn't worth the effort and even changed my number once to prevent further contact but he was always on mind and we always ended up back in touch. I wish I knew what it is that draws me in and keeps me there. I wish I could just close the door once and for all but I don't think that will ever happen. It's like he has cast some kind of spell over me...one so strong that I'm powerless to resist it. An amazing man in so many ways but also the most EXASPERATING in every way! I keep reading here about being patient. I honestly think, if patience were jelly beans and I gathered them all up from over the entire world...I still would fall short of having enough to deal with him. Why do I continue to do this to myself and how do I get off this roller coaster ride?