Sagittarius women: love and hate them
I am a Capricorn man who dated a Sagittarius woman that was 4 years older than me and a single mother at that, for about 5/6 months? I can't recall. I was surprised how well she was into me, the communication *at first seemed too good to be true* but she was really fun to talk to, dorky and very intelligent at the same time, an optimist on life...even though personally I thought she made poor decisions each time she woke up. Everything I showed her she loved, and they were things that made me into the person I was at that time, from art, to music to certain ideals... excuse my rudeness by the way. I fell in love with her in a ~I love you but I hate you~ type of way. I heard that those are the best by the way, well from fella buddies and acquaintances of mine. I really wanted to get to know why she made her poor decisions and the way she told me made me frustrated and I was like hahahah what were you thinking look at where you're at you had it all and you did all these things for attention for the misunderstandings of love...yeah I was really stubborn and kept forgetting about her feelings. I'll recognize it like an hour later, but I'll make up for it with my randomness, and of course the make up sex.
I accepted her, with her flaws or what I saw to be flaws. It was challenging from the beginning. She lived an hour away from me and at the time I was fixing my car so I had to take 4 trains to get there (I live in southern California by the way). Sometimes I'd go visit her when I got out of class, so I barely had a social life other than her. It was rough as I'd be coming home everyday at 1 and sometimes 3am. Nevertheless I didn't mind because I wanted to see her. The first time I met her I lost myself in a city I'd never been to and I met her mother and her. At first it was funny...yet when I saw her I knew she was meaningful and I was confused, because a mother being with a daughter that's 22? Moreover, I made up a schedule when we could both meet up and have a great time to either experience things and do things. Well I've tried but most of the time we would have sex...none stop sex...it was excellent. Can someone tell me why Sagittarius woman are so dumb when it comes to having what they really need and should stay to something that is worth their time and life and they'll end up miserable or living in regret?
Anyways, whenever we had the opportunity to hang out she would always bring out another side of me. The side that some would rarely see, an outgoing spontaneous individual that I am at times. One of my college buds convinced me that being the first in everything is not all great and I couldn't accept that with her. I wanted to be the true father to her child, her first love the first to everything. Some things worked according to her or what I've presented and with my limited resources and I tried to cramp it all up and it worked until I got really drained. I was naive at the time. I saw it coming when it was over, the last time I was with her she was ill. I came over anyways had our fun, ate dinner, slept with her, played/colored with her daughter but I knew she was replacing me with some guy she was talking with and me not being the jealous type or according to her mother and herself I am because some friend of hers was like "oh hey we have the same name isn't that cool" and I never met him in my life. I just looked at him and smiled and walked away and said to myself what a fu*king moron. I am a jealous type but when I'm in love and trusting her why show that weakness or how I see it as a weakness!
Now here's how it ended. She told me the bullsh*t things, we only had like 3 crazy arguments and it was just me yelling at her and throwing the past at her, why wasn't she thinking, is she really that dumb? But I didn't mean it. She began with all her stupid remarks about how I take life too seriously and some other crap. And I am the type of man that if you hurt me well I'm already plotting on how I'm going to get you twice as hard and usually it works. Then she's like its too much and I'm like yeah okay, you never see it from my perspective, you actually think that any man would accept a woman who has another man's child lol and who is this fu*king dumb that she makes poor decisions every single day??
When it ended I was aggravated because of the fact that she gave up on me. When I accepted many things from her, picture yourself in my shoes ( an 18 year old college student, M-TH school from 11 a.m to 6p.m at times or more... then barely eating, taking 2 buses or sometimes 4 trains to get where she's at to spend 3 hours max with her to make her happy then coming back home in the morning for a half a year! Always making yourself a funny, creative, spontaneous guy and the only reward was sex, and she couldn't even handle it! And when she could I was already drained from school lol). Perhaps I was young at the time and of course being determined I didn't give up or pretty much accepted it, so I went to see her or tried and the next day after we broke up she already had another guy in her house. I could have just called her mom and blown it for her but no...I accepted it. And it's funny how life shows you these things that it's all her fault as I was waiting for the train another single mother with a similar story to her was there. She explained it to me all. How I tried and she was too blind to recognize at a young age a man that was dedicated to her, who would want to please her and who did please her and who wouldn't mind going the distance and wanting to comprehend something so different yet so difficult and yet to accept at a young age. I was young and she was old, the huge differences didn't matter but overall I didn't do anything wrong and I should move on.
I swear to God this really happened lol. Then that week I was sad, lonely like any person is after BEING REPLACED that quickly, and you Capricorn guys can relate. Revenge is sweet but payback's a bi*ch. That's all I told her. And she's like yeah whatever and I told myself this guy isn't the person she loves or likes and then I went to recollect myself, find who I am and where I belong as a man on this planet of ungrateful bit*hes lol. Throughout the year she would communicate, say hello, say this and that, and inform me in 3 months that she broke up with the guy she replaced me with. Like I give a fu*king moose's last s*it, then she asks me if I miss her and I'm like not really have you seen the girl I'm dating? lol And she's like bullsh*t and I'm like yeah, then she's like you still have our videos and pics...hahaha think about that one people. Finally 2010 January 23rd we saw one another once more. We were having a great time and then we made out like we wanted to, like it was that one thing we were missing. I was happy but in the back of my mind I knew that was the last time I would EVER have the chance to be with her and enjoy that much fun in so little time even if we were drunk. She told me her story, what she had done in the year, but to me she did not progress whatsoever. She lives in a world of denial. At times it seems like a fact though and when I told her about me and I summarized it smaller than this story she had this face of jealousy or anger lol.
Anyways I think I should wrap this up.
Age, experience, does not matter only logic...even till this day I love her and hate her at the same time. If she ever comes back I will never accept her SHE LOST ME FOREVER.